~谎言~

谎言，果然说久了就会被戳破，

计划，永远也赶不上变化。

被误会，被误解，当你要解释时，

才发现当你用了太多谎言来弥补，

结果就变成了事实， （至少大家觉得是事实）

而我，就不知不觉地变成大恶人。

当初也只想不要让你们担心，

结果却越陷越惨。

对着不同的个体，我选择性的使用了不同的包装。

结果现在他们连结在一起，

辛苦经营的谎言就这样破局了。

不是是倒霉，还是幸运。

为了一个单纯的目标，

把自己搞成伤痕累累，

值得吗？

撑了那么久，有点累了。

该放弃吗？ 我不甘心。

但是还有别的选择吗？

给我希望的是你，

让我绝望的也是你。

从以前到现在，同样的场景一而再，再而三的重复。

你答应我的，几时可以做到叻？

我知道你是无心也不想这样，

但往往你的疏忽却会带给我无比的伤害。

而我现在，就一个人倚靠在刀口旁，

任凭他一次又一次的伤害我。

现在，已经没力了。

我只知道，我现在需要的是发泄。

不然，我会崩溃的。

发泄...............................................................................

你好，2011~

哒，哒，哒... 铃铃铃...（闹钟声）

啊~全新的早晨，还有... 全新的一年

是啊，2011了...

我也... 21岁了 !!! （严重惊讶休克5秒钟）

成年了耶，可以进赌场了^^

昨天（去年）没有去倒数

和家人出去走走吃东西，然后回家默默迎接2011的到来

少了一起大声呐喊54321的激动（也还好）

少了一起抬头看烟花的感动（虽然之前也没有感动到）

少了一起熬夜畅谈的时刻

当然，也少了狂欢后的头晕痛，黑眼圈

少了很多很多，唯一多出来的是…

思考的时间…

天马行空，胡思乱想是我的强项

所以，昨晚我更是让这强项发挥到极点

我竟然凭空幻想和2009的我说话 ==

我告诉他我2010过的很充实，很愉快

黑暗的日子已经过去，我现在每天都活在阳光下

我真的过的…还不错！

在2010年里

我开始了新的学生生活

而且选择了挑战性十足的工程系（我能做1题整张纸的数学了哦！）

结识了新的朋友（而且还有国外的哦！）

参加乐团，从新学习喜爱的乐器

看似单调乏味的生活，却让我有很大的享受

连我也大吃一惊的说~

唯一的遗憾，就是…

我看到我又比2009的我更胖了…

我到底什么时候才会有动力积极减肥阿？

唉~

幻想结束！ （在此强调，我没有精神分裂症！）

现在，电脑前的我手停了下来

犹豫着应不应该为新的一年许愿立下目标

想着2010年1月1号的愿望，

我达成了50%（应该==）

那接下来，是应该完成剩下的50%

还是从新编织一个全新100%的愿望呢？

----------（思想片刻后）----------

新年新希望

还是来个全新的好了

还是一样，一个愿望就好

我希望我在2011年里能够100%的快乐

怎么计算100%的快乐呢？

减肥成功 = 25% （原来我那么想瘦 ==）

考试gpa都3.0以上 = 10% （卑微到我都自卑了==）

一家人健健康康，和乐融融 = 10% （一定要的嘛~）

出国旅行 = 15% （最难达成的目标，希望存的到钱瓜~）

拥有一堆真实，不虚假的朋友 = 15% (假面狐狸都给我滚)

拥有很多的回忆&拍很多照片做纪念 = 10% （大家一起出来玩吧）

懒惰的我变得勤劳一点 = 5% （唉，加油啦~）

所以，还是一样不贪心的我，就只有一个愿望， 呵呵~

最后，按照去年的惯例

2012年的黎伟汶我又要向你喊话咯！

2012的你，要很快乐哦~

在2011的我，会加倍努力

让你在2012时能拥有100%的快乐！

还有2012年1月1号要在幻境中来向我报告哦！

新年快乐!

从新开始

是的，经过了那么长时间的等待，
我终于，终于再次收拾了行李来到了nilai,
我接下来2年半要看的学校。
心情有点复杂，
因为在开心的同时，也相对的担心。
开心就不用说咯，
新环境，又当学生啦~
担心的就是怕功课上会跟不上。
失败了一次，不想再失败第二次。
感觉上真的必须每天温习功课咯。
我应该做得到吧？？？

今天是我在这里的第二天，
一切感觉还不错，
想想昨天一个人带一个行李就胆生毛跑了上来。
还几怕交不到朋友要一个人当独行侠几天的。
但比我想象的好很多咯。
昨天和housemate & roommate 交了朋友，
还有1个印度人housemate，
他名叫govind,但我一开始就叫错了，
叫到他gorind, 后来更离谱，
今天叫到他做golbin哦~ ==
今天又交了另外一5位其他宿舍的，
感觉上应该也蛮kind的哇~
我要尽快扩大在这里的社交圈。
然后，享受我那说长不长，短不短在这里的2年半。

我，神秘的黎伟汶再次出发啦~
这次我要竭尽所能的用力飞翔，
直到我所向往的那边蔚蓝天空。

OMG and TMD

yesterday, go for movie and sing k with my friends,
and he is bring the two girl that i don have good inpression AGAIN.
But, what should i said?
Other than rude words, also don have any words can
express my angry... ARH.... TMD....
Firstly, i not the outlook society member,
so if u look sorry, i also won't look down or other bad feels to u.
But, if u without looking, also without attitubes and look and acts like idiol,
what can i do?
the most i can do is ignore u and fake smile with u...
But people give u face u don't want face,
and keep thinking u are very well...
What could i said??? HAIZ....
I swear. next time if got CHANCE to go out again,
don worry, i won't be the nice guy again.
I would directs said "I mind that she is exists"
So don't let me see u in future again....
the more i see u,
the more dulan i am... KAO...
Why got this kinds of girls exists in this worlds o???
Can't figure out...
DIU. Spoiling my good mood...
TMD oOo=.=oOo
DIU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Postpone AGAIN

WHY???
Why so unlucky this few month de?
nothing good happened to me,
now, wait for so long de study also need to postpone again~
why??????????????????
i felt very unhappy about this few month,
i want my school life,
It that that hard?
Even maybe just postpone another 2 month,
but for me, it not just for 2 month,
i really no time to wait anymore~
if keep waiting,
how old i am when i am graduate ?
really don't dare to think it~
Just hope this 2 month can pass faster~
And don't any accident or emergency case,
Please, i cannnot take it anymore~
I want my School Life~~~~~~~~~~~

During this few month,
doing nothing at all,
felt very failure,
everything also unsuccessful,
work? no work~
revision my poor maths? nope even more than 5 time.
improve my english? Nope~

What i do past few month?
Play? also not played too much,cause don't have $$
sleeping? maybe
eating? my weight keep on raising

Haiz~ Failure a~
i don't wanna always do spiderman le~
Oh, Heaven, help me~~~~~~~~~~~`

Form 1

What was the time did u see your form 1 picture last time?
If your answer is more than few year,
suggest you go and take a look,
you will having fun for it~
Well, actually i also accidentally found my form 1 picture in facebook,
that was the time i participate in the Pesta 2003,
and joined the singing groups.
So, that the look when i am just form 1.


can u found out where am i?



what a nice hairstyle + colour


wow, i look so young~~~

While looking in those picture,
my mind was ran through all the thing happened during that time,
What was the thing i cared in form 1,
what was the thing i done in form 1,
what was the thing happened in form 1,
and a lot a lot in form 1.

And the conclusion,
that time i really still a kid, ( Smith :) )
But, felt quite happy during that time,
don't need to trouble so many thing,
And life a simple life,
But now?
Well, it's quite simple also,
but don't know why just feel a bit more complicate,
or just maybe i think too much?
Who know?

眼镜

~眼镜,眼镜,找朋友~现在找到我眼上~

是的,很不幸de,我近视啦~
所以就必须配副眼镜来带咯~
现在,眼镜配好咯~
从今天起我正式加入眼镜一族~
虽然没有很深,但以免近视越来越深,
虽然很挣扎,但为了眼睛好,
还是戴了呗~



现在还是有一点接受不了带眼镜de样子,
所以为了压压惊,所以买了几本书回家看(借口)
呵呵~

ps:除大哥大外,其他都是就到不能再旧的了~
读后感:狼嚎,大骗局,我本人很喜欢,还没看的人真de可以去买来看.
真的蛮不错看de. 另外2本,就还好罢了.而且对大哥大de故事没有很了解~

最后献上我de眼镜looks一张，呵呵~

惨~吃太多了~

哎哟，才刚立志要减肥没几天，
今天又再次大破戒咯~
吃了超de说~
haiz....
怎么说叻？
早餐没吃，所以午餐1餐当两餐吃。
结果...
在经济饭吃了一大盘饭，
吃完后又跑去面包店买了一大堆面包，
1份小型热狗面包（4粒），
2个sushi面包，
一个dougnut。
结束了，但已经是很惊人的数量了，
结果用了3个小时才把面包啃完~
过后，晚上约了马先生和马太太出来晚餐。
在old town吃了一轮后，
（原本选择kfc的，但看到kfc人龙长到~~~~
不得不打退堂鼓。 == ）

过后，马先生说吃不饱， 所以就一起去买sushi吃咯~
而我也顺手买了一份de说...
买完后，又跑去吃dougnut喔~
马先生当场就把dougnut&sushi给解决了~
我只解决了dougnut，
sushi回家慢慢吃。
说是这么说啦，但已经吃完了喔。
haiz....

单单今天这几餐就要肥死我咯~
哈哈~
哎哟~~~
惨~~~~



后记
好久没见到他们咯~
所以还蛮开心的，
而且也聊了很多东西南北的东西~
哈哈~
等下次人齐了点后在出来吧~
因为~
下次我可不想再做电灯泡了~
呵呵~
我亲爱de股长阿~
怎么早早打给你不要听电话？
等人家要散场了才打来？
真是de~

今天，我的第一次...

今天，大概睡了到下午的时候才醒，
可能你看到我这么写的时候就知道我今天过得很平旦吧？
但你就大错特错咯。
你们知道我刚刚去了哪里吗？
猜猜看~
哈哈~
去了辣与冻吃板面。
哈哈~
没有拉，其实我刚刚大概5点酱作了我觉得
我这18年来最大胆的事，
你们知道是什么吗？
在猜猜看...
是我18年来的第一次哦~
而且，还特别跑到了满高级的hotel哦.
为了这18年来的第一次，
我可是不惜成本all the way 跑到
PART LOYAL HOTEL哦，
对于我人生的第一次，
应该够气派的了。
但是结果却很伤心咯，
因为...因为...因为我太紧张了啦，
而且又没准备好，
所以一切都特别差咯~
连前奏都没什么的就进去了。
更惨的是我差不多30秒就出了啦，
哇唠~
我人生的第一次是糟糕的咯~
有阴影了啦~
可能以后再也不敢了，
怎么办？
而且一切都发生及过得太快了，
害我手足无措的连照片都没拍咯，
这么一个纪念性的日子，
我竟然忘记拍照？
OMG......

哈哈~你们知道了吧？
今天就是我的第一次















去参加ASTRO新秀大赛的选拔咯，
不要想歪了，哈哈~
是出乎我意料的咯~
第一局30秒清唱就bye bye了。
但是真得是自己没准备好啦，
在register时突然人来疯，
把原本要唱的歌改掉哦~
结果，就如之前说的咯，
30秒就...就....
而且还好像唱错歌词tim,
haiz......

过后，为了慰藉我那受创的心灵，
跑去看电影，
虽然是部上映蛮久的电影了，
但里面还是座无虚席咯~

如果你还没看，建议你快去看哦~
因为本人我还觉得满好看的，哈哈~
顺便一提，刚刚我在audition时，我拿的号码是1203哦，
大家，都几天哪去买马票，
一定会开采哦。哈哈~　

2 more day

Yuppy, yes, u're right, 2 more day....
2 more day i can back to kl again...
Just another 2 more day....
really, this time is real...
friends, really miss u all...
yup, 2 more day...
this time i must play hard,
haha....
else, next time don't know when can have fun with u all guy liao,
so, wait for me....
2 more day,
yup, 2 day...

UPDATE

Yup,same meaning as my title,
haha,update update.
1 month didn't update since chinise new year.
Why?
Just because don't have mood to update.
What happen to me recently?
haha~
First at all,
I stop my study in tarc,
so now i in jb and do nothing everyday...
so that means that i also resign from the CSAG,
sorry guy...

And i'm very confuse about my future,
what the course i really want?
what kind of life i really?
what the thing i really want?
Or even what kind of character i should be?
Confuse confuse and confuse~~


And feel that i really unstable.
even make a decision sometime,
but end up will think 100 reasons to reject it,
then regret again...
Can my mindset and determination grows stronger or not?
really hate the me in now status...
I HATE IT...
very hate it,
failure guy~
AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

recently very like one song,
cause the word inside very suits the mood right now.
I don't know,where to go? What's the right team?
I want my Own thing,So bad i gonna Scream.
I can't choose,so confused, what it all means,
i want my own dreams, SO bad i gonna Sceram..
AH`~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hardly breath right now...

Insomnia

The time show 2.14 am now,
it should be the time for sleep,
but don't know why,
me wake up already...
Just now,
when i wake up and open my eye,
i though it should be in the very morning already,
but when i see the time,
i am stun,
because now just only the start of midnight but morning.
So i try to sleep again,
but can't...
So open the laptop again,
and come here type some stupid thing, lolz...
And now,
found out that me haven't have my dinner,
so hungry...
Luckily still got some biscuit...
Haiz...
What should i do for the time now???
Could somebody teach me how to sleep?
Because me already like this about 1 week already.
tired and bore about the midnight when alone and doing nothing...
So, help.......

Home Sick

Don't know why,
maybe really a long time didn't go home,
so now got a little bit missing home.
Suddenly miss my mum,dad, and my 2 adorable brother,
actually quite worry de,
because every time i go back,
my young brother is actually can't recognize me,
so got a little scare someday if too long time didn't go back,
he may ask me who am i?
then really omg already lo..
haiz...




Time pass very fast,
just a moment,
another new starter year already,
and me also little by little growing up,
and also learn and know more and more thing,
but sometime still quite missing the day before...
yesterday(i think -.-|||) msn with my one older friends,
found that a lot of things change,
friend the first,
mindset,thinking,lifestyle,habit,character
is totally change a lot already,
so we conclude that that impossible we can same as the time bofore...
and then the one of the question before we end our conservation,
she ask
"we also same like this situation,right?"
and me also don know why very honest and answer she
"yes, i think so"
So, is that anyway we can back to the time before?
when we are still a group of GOOD FRIENDS.
the answer is NO,
we will never back to the back,
but keep going on
and never looked back...

Finallyyyyyyyyy can online at home liao...

Yuppy, my home network finally working already,
but... haiz...
so troublesome one,
my room can't detect the wireless access,
so i need to connect the internet in the living room...
but never mind la,
since wait so long time already,
don't mind to wait another few day to settle it la,
haiz... how kind i am.. haha...
Yesterday nothing to do,
so started to take my photo to play and edits, hehe...
but don't know how to do it at all,
so just simple press and press and press...
end up the photo become like this already...

First try... my own picture, hehehe...


second try, but so sad lo... now only found out we edu group
take so few picture only~~~


And then this few day don't know why really have mood to reading,
so that also go and buying 2 copy of book to read it, hehe...




So that all for it ba...
recently nothing special happen in the daily life.
yup, last few day,
2 of my friends are come to visit me far away from jb,
so what we done?
actually felt so sorry for them,
because i didn't plan well for them,
so other than shopping in sungai wang and time square,
look like do nothing already,
so sorry yup, friends...

And also in last few days,
we are having our csg 2 gathering (can i counts it for gathering?)
so it was really a long time we didn't meet together,
so i really have a fun time at there,
hope that in future we still can like this come out and gather again..
so that all...

ops, so seem like this,
actually still happen a lot in this few day...
so hope that can have a nice day in tomorrow and rest of the days too...

~Untitle~

昨天，是我们顾问团的改选，
也是他们前届顾问团结散的时候...
但是，昨天一早的时候就没有mood了...
只因为...我朋友，他...退团了...
想当初，我们一起的约定，
说好一起当带团，
但是现在，一切都变得不可能了...
很想骂他，
但是才知道原来我骂不下口...
很想安慰他，
又不懂怎么和他说...
很想去找他，
却找不到理由去找他...
原来，我一直走在失败的路上...
连想找个朋友都要有理由才能去...
记得每次找他们时，
若不是有什么活动要先集合时阿，
我才会去找他们...
就算出去玩，也是等他们约我...
我好像从来都没主动约过人哦？
说会昨天吧~
很幸运的我金榜无名，
接下来就准备做我的带团顾问吧~
但是，
从昨天到现在，
都有一种空虚感....
昨天午餐过后，
发现大家都form成自己所谓的小团体了...
而我，
竟然找不到一个可以容纳我的地方...
过后就一个人呆站一阵子后，
才开始和其他人开始闲聊...
但是，那一刻的我，
仿佛被世界给遗忘了...
虽然也许只是短短的几分钟，
但是在人群中被遗忘，
真是一种不好受的滋味阿~
不懂，现在的我，又疑惑了~
昨天在回家路上，
突然有人对我说顾问好，
看了一眼后，
才知道是之前不懂第几团的团员，
有一点眼熟，
在不知情的情况下，
我们有闲聊了几句...
过后才知道，
原来他是那些很想进入顾问团但又欠缺机会的...
看到他一直不断的追问我们顾问团的事，
我感到很惭愧咯...
我现在自己是顾问团的一分子，
但是都没那么关心啦，
看看人家拉，
不是顾问团的都比你关心顾问团，
你自己到底在做什么啊？
现在的我，迷失疑惑了~
为什么？
为什么我会在这里？
到底是为了什么我加入顾问团？
满满的疑惑，
压得我无法呼吸...
好闷，好辛苦...

What is the true?

So, can someone tell me who talking the true?
Or both are true but just because of misunderstanding?
Or really one of it are fake?
Then you are just talking a lie to me or what?
Who should i trust?
Maybe someone may ask me,
that their problem,
you don't need to bother so much de,
it won't effect you actually...
But for me,
since i join the advisor group,
i want to try my best and want everything in best conditions,
else, what the point i join it?
why don't just quit it and then go back to my normal life?
So free, so relax without any restrict...
So, for me,
even say we are a team,
but the leader always is the center and decision maker for the team,
so i strongly agree and hope the leader are the most capable and strong person.
so that why i am so care about who will be the next chairman...
Because...
for fair, we will have a better performance by having a correct decision.
for self, we won't be so tough and can be more happy with the decision.
If every one no agree with the decision or order,
what the point we doing it?


Before in CSG 2 i am really happy,
because i have 1 group of people that will help each other,
that time were a very beautiful memory for me,
And let me think that come to kl was a correct decision...
But now, in the CSAG,
other people may say that all the talent people group,
but for me, maybe we all got some talent or ability,
but when 1 place that full of ability,talents,strong mindset people,
that will always have a fight there...
Indeed we were same as before working together,
and have some fun there(for me that group),
but look and heard the other side,
you can see that...
some lie, trick, make use of people and more...
So, just feel that very vex when see it...
What me happen in jb,
total happen in here again...
Even know that kl actually is more complicated...
But i still wanna have a try,
try what?
try to a place that people are true to each other...
But again... i fail to find it...
Maybe there are not longer more have this kind of place,
or maybe i can find it when sleeping in the midnight...


Tomorrow got the election(front part),
really don't know wanna vote for who,
and also very hope that no people will vote for me...
And then just same as my aspectation,
then can be a group advisor lo...
What a nice day...
So hopefully in the sunday will same as my imaging...

So just like this la,
no more command about it...
Just see how going on in tomorrow night la...
God bless...

~Last week~

Last two week,
the most busy week for me...
because other than assignment,
i also need to busy for the the CS...
Other than that,
sometime go for entertainment,
so, that was a very busy but rich 2 week...

Firstly, the assignment
the most important task,
because if fails this task,
other task also will be cancel automacally...
so, overall is ok,
just didn't meet with all requirement.
haiz... failure...

Second task,
about the CS night...
overall i done a very bad work,
but forget it,
because i also didn't do it with full spirit...
so just like this,
don't have many feel about it.
Just wondering when can we do well as our advisor...
Will the day come?
Or the day will never come?
then will fulfill what they say
"一代不如一代"
haiz..
i don't want...
fails one time already,
i never want to fails second time...
it quite a big blow to me if fails again...
and then,
this saturday is the election day again...
really hope that my name won't appear in the whiteboard again...
really don't want...
because when the name on the whiteboard,
means that got chance to be the edu vice/director.
i don't want...
i just want to be the groups advisor.....
hopefully can...

Yesterday were the discussion session,
happen a lot of thing.
Something unaspected happen during the conservation.
Just hope that can peace in future ba...
nothign to write le,
just finish itgua...
see ya...

无奈+累弊= 永无止境的感叹

Omg, preparation week, again -_-|||

yup, now is 5.44 am.
but still in friend house for the
prepare invitation card and poster.
Tired...
But today i still didn't help them...
because i still struggle for my slideshow...
Because lack of photo,
so it make my procedure very very low...
So hope that later can finish it in the afternoon time,
and settle assignment in evening time,
then should be alright for helping them le...
I don't want my preparation is for slideshow again...
I don't want it...
And this time is quite fresh to me,
because maybe is do the same thing as last time,
but this time was with CSAG people,
and during the night,
felt alright,
atleast better than my imagination...
hehe...
And now...
even very tired,
and later 8 am still got class...
but...
don't know why,
still felt quite happy le....
got the feel as preparation last time...
maybe got a bit different la,
but hope tha in future can be more and more better lo...
hehe~
Just like that la,
still need to continue in my slideshow,
now just eationg snake for blogging,
wahahaha....
ok, just like that ba,
keep working,keep working...

疲累+无奈+快乐+充实+新的过程+复杂的想法=无限的未知数....

For survive in study~

Actually don't know wanna typing that title,
so just simple put it...
The main thing i wanna talks...
is something happen in my class yesterday...
yesterday during PIS class,
and we were divides into assignment group.
And then, at the end,
got someone didn't get any group.
and not no enough people,
just don't have people wanna group with him...
And me as well...
And then,
how to say he also need to join the group,
and we already divide into 4 group,
2 group 4 people group and 2 group 3 people group,
so he need to choose to join either one group of 3 people group.
But before that,
we were actually discuss and talking beside him,
and i think he would heard it.
The conservation we discuss as dialog before...
group A: hey, group b, u take him la...
group B: You take la, we don't want...
group A: don't want, he was so...
group B: .......
group A: ......

Finally...
group A +group B+other ppl: laugh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
and the main character, mr L: silent and heard our conservation...

So,at that time, i felt sad for him,
why study until this situation?
haiz~
And now,
i felt i am so bad ...
But think about it,
as my last post,
if i sympathy him,
who care about me?
Even i know this is wrong,
but i still need to do it in order me to survive...
For mr L,
actually i am very hope that you can transfer course or stop in DIA,
because, you really not suitable in this class...
maybe you still can bear all of it and silent and study yourself...
but... i means real,
without any classmate help,
you really cannot survive in this class...
And maybe you now in this stage part of it is my responsible...
but...
don't know how to say it...
But i still will never say a sorry to you,
because currently,
you still not count as my friend.
so won't bother you so much de...
And that all for this part,
the conclusion was now mr L are the


And next,
for me to survive in class and my study,
i must study hard now,
only that me able continue communicate with my friends,
and won't let other people look down...
So, i must take a balance in CS and study...
otherwise, i sure need to give up one of it...
and i am greedy,
i wanna both of it...
so just be study hard ba...
and whether i take the balance,
i give myself a simple challange,
the result for this sem,
if this sem i still get the hell results,
i think my CS life or maybe college life would be stop it.
So, for me,
for study,
for CS,
for friend,
i must strife for it...
and achieve my target...

~暴躁~

不知道为什么，
最近变得好毛躁哦~
总是有一种很“bek cheh”的感觉~
觉得感觉上一切好像很匆忙酱，
就觉得好像一直有人在催你的感觉~
而且，现在，只要环境稍微吵了一点点，
就会很想骂人~
不知道为什么...
说是压力，又有点说不上~
在班上...觉得大家都好优秀哦，
好像样样都比我好，
觉得自己好差哦~
怎么会这样？
为一欣慰的可能是前天的英文presentation...
从老师说的comment的应该是不错咯~
其他的...就~~无言~~~
但是，最近开始有点想读书的mood了，
对我而言是非常好的，
至少不会拖到考试的时候才想温习~
但是...
现在还是觉得很"bek cheh",
怎么会这样？
而且，
最近不懂怎么，
一直有无奈的感觉。
就连我的顾问都说我
“你什么都无奈的拉~”
过后才觉得是有一点咯~
就连现在写部落格都有一点点地无奈~
阿~~~~~~
不懂要写什么，
或许只是想写点咚咚来发泄一下吧~
在这里，才能畅所欲言。
想说什么，就说什么~
在这里，
最近看了一个老朋友的部落格。
发现她慢慢开始加入面具家族了~
觉得有一点点地伤心，
但是却让我觉得，
在现实的世界里，
适当的面具好像是必须的咯~
而且，要有很多个。
遇到不同的人带不同的面具~
但现在，我困惑了。
在这里，我还有带着所谓的面具吗？
曾经想过当初来到kl时，
就可以尝试的活出自我~
但是感觉上，我好像已习惯了带\换面具了~
觉得已经迷失了~
现在的我，
到底是怎样的?
到底我要成为怎样的我呢？
还是和以往一样，
做个满背包面具的戏剧人呢？