~Update for last friday~

Yup,because the network problem for my currently home,
so last few day cannot online and updating my blog,
so i'm replace it now.

Let talks about yesterday(friday), the day i have my hubungan Etnik exam,
and only one word can describe it,
that >"fails",or "resit".
This one i very sure, no chance to pass it at all,
what i have to do now is prepare rm50 and resit again...
Haiz...
So miserable...
My cpga 3.0, gone le...
No mood anymore...

So,i'm studying in my friend house to study the PCD1,
but end up,
don't know is my problem or what,
didn't study at all lo,
don know spending whole day there for what,
but recall back, okey la,
at least still got learn more details in if-else statement,
not gain nothing at all la,
but i wanna learning for loop la..
But never mind,
today try to do it myself,
then tomorrow go there just for the question,
should be okey de,
but must work hard lo,
cause wanna get a A in PCD1,
wahaha...
And tomorrow is mid-autumn festival,
so mixing with group should be quite nice,
atleast won't feel so lonely.
wahaha...

And yet,finally the exam almost wanna finish le,
but cannot go back immediately,
because still need to stay for the activity,
haiz...
Half of my holiday juse gone like this,
don't know deserve it or not.
Hope that can get a good memory in the preparation and "xia xiang"time...

So,now hope that the exam can finish faster,
then can have my class party,fun time, "xia xiang", and the time when i in jb...
Looking forward the coming for the day...


To be continue...

~Information Technology~

~EASY COME,EASY GO~
Woo...
Finally,one of the torture subject pass...
And...
i think most of the ppl have the same reaction as me...
when seeing the exam paper...
faint away...
Why le?
Because...
It is easy de lo...
Harm all of us study until die.
But for those who fails last time,
should be very not reconciled to it...
Because during their last paper...
It totally different from us...
one from heaven and one from earth
Our one is the easy one...
but they one... different until seeing also don't know how to do it.
And now, quite relax now...
Because i'm 100% sure can pass it, and maybe got chance to get a A.
haha... yuppy+happy XD
And now,
for award myself,
tomorrow take more rest.
then should be strife for HE,PCD,and pre calculus.
For HE, even is in malay language, but should be not big problem to pass it...
PCD, e... with JL help, should be no problem, and he say that if learn from him,
sure get A,haha XD...
Lastly, the most headache subject, pre calculus...
haiz...
damn subject match with useless lecturer,
prefect match to fails ppl...
GOOD,
but...
i won't so easy to defeat by u de.
I sure can overcome it.
So,
prepare yourself ba,
Mr Hwang,
i swear that won't be your student anymore.
So, because of this.
I must pass this paper,
else,
i will go against my own pledge.
Haha...



To be continue...

English language

Today exam, quite okey, not too difficult,
yet, not too easy...
So should be okey de...
And it maybe also the only sudject i can get A lo...
But scare that will lose a lot ogf mark at essey part.
Just really long time didn't write english article le..
Fell that a lot of word have already forget it...
So i use a lot of simple and broken english in my exam...
Hope that the teacher can know the theory of “简单就是美”
Can mark my marks as much as she\he can...


So,today exam okey lo, nothing much to comment it...
But now,
feel so down and sleeply now...
IT,
really need to study it,
Another while,
after finishing this post,
I need to open that hypnosis note.
It so thick and more...
How to study it le??
Thinking ing...
whatever la,
Just study and absorb as much as i can.
Don't bother it anymore...
If really cannot...
Then....
Resit next sem lo...
I don't scare anymore...
Is me myself think too much...
The important keyword...
"Trust Myself, then nothing can defend me"

Later maybe will go my classrap home for study...
Should be can helping me a lot...
So...
Let me go further more...
Not only for exam...
But for knowledge...
And for my own good...



To be continue...

Second exam, intro to business...

Before that, just having a quick revision at yesterday night... Actually plan sleep at 12 de, but after that rest too long time, and become so lazy, so... at the end, still sleep around 1 am. -_-|||

And morning, cannot wake up early, after that breakfast spend a little more time, then just like this go to exam hall le, but luckily still memorise those thing revision before...

And see at the paper, quite nervous, but overall, quite okey la, maybe can get 60 to 70++ from there lo...

Even cannot get the mark for my expetaction, but... should be alright for this sudject gua...
but got a bit disappointed , cause i empty 2 question lo, 1 for 10 and 1 for 5 le... sad...

whatever la, now should be more concentrate in another 2 sudject, PCD(not pussycatdoll,pls) and pre-calculus... Headache for this 2 sudject la...


Okey, now, should be rest and relax a while...
And... have some fun later?? Who want it? call me gua... XD
And....


To be Continue...

~Bahasa Melaysia~

Bahasa Melaysia, the first exam i having in my college, but...
since i may fails the first exam i have, haiz... such a bad first time..
haha...

Why i will talking that le? That are no reason, just me ignore this sudject and didn't revision at all,
the only sad thing may be i will resit in this sudject in next sem lo, what a shame...
Then u may ask, why i feel so relax,right?
Tell u the reason ba, because the BM mark didn't count in the cpga mark.
So, just don't care it la, resit resit lo(if can, ofcouse don want la...XD)

So,just now, after the exam, go lunch with a group of classmate, and we having KFC in Jusco.
After that go for some fun in the "Pusat Hiburan Keluarga",haha... And just like a child lo, having fun there and relax... haha... 2morrow still got business test ar...-_-|||

And now, the time is about 3:48pm, another while, need to study hard lo...
This time de have count mark, me de target, cpga 3.0 above, i won forget de...
So, for achieve this target, should be revision again..
So, just end here ba...
Then comtinue 2morrow...
For information, i may update my blog everyday during the exam period,
So guy can always know that how i going on in the exam o...
So, see ya,
update 2morrow...
haha....



To Be Continue...

~突然~

突然，感觉好空洞哦~寂寞感也不知不觉地油然而生,现在正听着一首很悲惨的歌曲,那种感觉,更加不是滋味~昨天过生日,因为钱用光了,所以就索性留在家里哪都不去,过着这一人的生日,不自觉得就会想起当初还在jb所发生的一切一切，虽然有好有坏，但怎么说，都是一段值得回忆的回忆~

以前，从一个什么都不懂的野孩子到现在一个人生活读书的学院生，虽然看似好像很长，但给我的感觉，一切都太快了，不习惯一个人的生活方式，不习惯朋友的转变，不习惯，不习惯，不习惯~一切都不习惯~


以前，与你们一起的泡网巴，一起的通宵达旦，一起的电影，一起的废话，一起的疯狂...
现在，一人的网际网络，一人的漫漫长夜，一人的戏剧，一人的自言自语，一人的发呆...

一切，都已颠倒，过去的一切，仿佛已经不再存在，换来的，是一张空白的图画纸，什么颜色都没有，一切都要从新画过，而我，手上拿着颜料，无力的看着那空白的图画纸，不知如何下手。心里总是期待以前的一切一切能够在一次的浮现出来，但结果却是我一次又一次的失望~
很想努力的把他在一次的画上颜色，但却怕会覆盖了以前的一切一切~那一切，就不能再找回来了，但若不把新的颜料画上去，就会一直保持着空白，这样空洞的世界，要我怎么活啊？谁来解救我？同意一些朋友说的，如果时间能回到从前，哪怕一瞬间也够，让我们再次感受一下以前的生活，这样就可以得到一些些的安慰...


一切，都是那么的无望，疲累，现在的生活已改变，再也回不到以前的感觉，昨天生日过了，再也找不回18之前的喜悦，感觉，感触...一切，都已改变...虽然感官已适应了生活，但心里头缺了的那块，是怎么填也填补不了的空缺，现在感觉好辛苦，有窒息的感觉，一切的压力压得我透不过气，明明很累，但又不想让疲累给人家看到，不想人家来安慰我，开解我，帮助我，只想一人承担那无形的挫败感，至少目前还没出现能和我分担，也就是谈心的朋友吧？


以前，有你们的感觉，我把他当作是那么的理所当然，当然也有用心维持，希望能维持一辈子，但现在，我却已经背弃了他。虽然说友谊不灭，但现在只是个开头，才短短1，2个月的时间，但谁敢保证在接下来的日子里，依然不会变质呢?不是我对你们没信心，而是感情真的是很脆弱的，时间+上距离，真的维持的到吗？还是只是自欺欺人？我不知道...只知道现在无法天天和你们见面，沟通，真得很没有安全感，也没勇气维持着他咯。还是说，我错了？我们的友谊是经的起考验的？真的不知道~~~


现在的我，真的好无助...一个人漂流在无形的空间，寻找下一个目的地~~~

~开始上课啦~

真的，到了今天才有那么“一点”上课的感觉咯...第一次拿到note,第一次真正有听到一点东西，第一次做笔记（但字数不多，哈哈...),还有很多很多~~~但就在以为上完的时候，突然杀出一个不懂什么种族的老师，他的名不懂要说可爱还是好笑，他是男的，根据projetor上写的话，他名实这么些的>>>Benny Thomas Vivian...各位，有听过这个名吗？他整我们吗？？？还是也有人名是这样但我不懂？是我孤陋寡闻吗？？


结果回到家后，是累的...因为.....break的时间太多了...结果不是努力到累，而是rest到累...
今天下午下了场大雨，天气蛮冷的，又在lecture hall一整天，冷气是冷到......差点就冻僵了...
回到家后，阳台的窗口忘记关，整个客厅都被雨淋湿了，朋友晒在外面的衣服也全湿了，好在我今天没洗衣，不然全都要从洗了，哈哈...



今天在和去吃晚餐的路上，被2个女子给拦住了，过后才知道她们是来自某某教会的，说什么每个星期三有bible study,问我们有兴趣吗？？然后接着说了一大堆，不让我们有机会说话，过后好不容易提起勇气有机会对她说没什么兴趣（因为我很少拒绝女孩子的要求的），但她们还不死心，问我们住哪里？说什么如果时间配合不到，她们可以上我们家来为我们讲解，我个汗瀑布啊...都说不要了，还要上我家？真是被炸到...结果，还是和她买了一小本的书本，才有机会离开...
可见，我还是拒绝不了女孩子...那书我压根儿不想要叻...还说什么我有机会认识主了...
真是给她炸到~~~还did u know how many part have in our human being?? The answer is 3 part ...谁管你们多少part啊？知不知道我只想给你们一个ending part啊...


刚刚又收到了一封欺诈信息，说什么我赢了18k，我什么也没干，就中？当我那么好骗咩？
在这种时候，你跟我说从天上掉下来的我还相信多一点，中奖？好心诈骗集团们，换点花样啦，看了都sien啊...下次应该这样，说你中奖了，奖金在门口，等受害者受骗后开门去看时，趁机潜入他家打抢还有用点...哈哈...



好无聊哦...没有妈妈在耳边唠叨，没有熟悉的朋友在旁边胡闹，没有钱在手边花，没有女友躺在身边，什么都没有~~~原本的一切就好像回到了原点，从新开始...
~~~~~~~有的只是无奈~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~有的只是寂寞~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~有的只是无聊~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~有的只是空虚~~~~~~~


>>>>>>>>> 所有的一切，仿佛都不存在了<<<<<<<<<<<

我的course分成 6 group,郁闷啦...

虽然之前已经知道要分成6 group，但今天去到学院里，看到分group namelist时，傻掉咯，竟然没一个我认识的和我同group，是晴天霹雳到郁闷的咯...


怎么说也认识了几个人吧？但都没一个和我同group？我个汗瀑布啊...
实在是倒霉到........ 真的是TMD的咯，walao..... 真的是衰到啊... 但过后看了看，还好，还有一个认识的和我同group，但就不熟咯...而且...他就是那个和我鸡同鸭讲的那个人咯，广东话，郁闷...


等了那么久，终于等到上课的时间了，但还是要等到下个礼拜1，sien sien...是郁闷的咯...
终于快要可以结束那每天无所事事的感觉咯，真是太棒了.haha...而且，今天才知道原来哈有我认识的人和我一起读tarc,虽然不同course,但高兴的是她们才住我隔壁block onlyA o... So Happy...
And they are YY and SY, go to figure yourselve who are them ba... HAHAHAHA...(and is pretty girl also,hahaha)


今天去做id card，人是多到...郁闷的咯...等了好几个钟才做好，真的不知道，tarc那么大，那么多教育人士，但为什么好像都脑残的？？明知道好多人要做id card,为什么才开一间room罢了？不会开多几间啊？还我要去briefing也去不到（当然我根本不想去，哈哈）


是闷的咯...没事做，今天也没发生什么事，就这样吧，等下去找YY&SY吃晚餐，就这样，哈哈....

踏入学院的第一天...

等了那么久，终于等到去学院的第一天了，但没想到场面是那么多人的咯，虽然知道会有很多人，但没想到会那么多咯，而且还只是早上7点only for SAS and SOT的学生罢了，但人是多到...非人山人海能形容的，是恐怖的咯...真不知道再加上其他school的会怎样咯。也没机会看啦，每个school的时间都不一样的...

单单我的course就有好像130多个人咯，其他IT course 的才坐差不多一边的座位而已，我们却坐满了2边，结果过后好像还要分成6班或以上咯.是郁闷到...
今天自己course的都没认识咯，都是嘘寒问暖几句罢了，也许需要更多时间吧？？
反而和一个读别的course的特别投缘，分开后还sms我，过后还要转course到我这里。　
但现在遇到大问题了咯他们很多人是说广东话的啦我都不会说只会勉强听一点点罢了，怎么办？
沟通有问题了啦...救命啊~~~~


过后有个坐在我隔壁的我跟他说话是鸡同鸭讲咯，他一直跟我说广东话但我只会听不会讲。过后他知道后就很“努力”的用华语和我交谈咯。但也许他太久没说华语了吧（因为他都是说广东话的），所以就说得蛮吃力的还不时很自然的说回广东话，真的是有点好笑咯。但看到他那么努力的陪我说话真的是有点感动和感激他咯...所以在接下来的日子里可能要去学广东话咯那和他们交谈也容易方便一点，所谓入乡随俗嘛...就是不懂学得会吗...郁闷...


今天在学院里什么也没做到，就只是在那听校长讲师训话咯。我一向来都超讨厌这些又长又丑的训话的咯，但最后训话的那个讲师真是有够TMD的咯!!!不懂是眼睛烂还是怎样所有人都累倒趴在桌上了他还一直滔滔不绝很自豪的发表他的废话，没有停的意思咯!!!他说的每句话没有一句话是之前那些讲师说过的咯，根本每半样是可以听得　可以听的咯...真的是给他气到....非言语能形容的。别的school的学生都tour完整间tarc咯，我们还在hall里听他的废话!是给他气到+累倒咯...


今天就只做这些事而已，所以也没什么感觉。所以也没什么东西写。只是不懂怎么是累倒......郁闷咯...明天又没活动咯。又要做游魂一整天或在家结蜘蛛网了咯!不然又要泡cc了，是郁闷的咯...
HAIZ.........................